Apollo
Beloved,
I know right now you believe that the theme of your life is abandonment. I want you to know that is untrue. You are extremely loved and cared for and protected. You’ve been blessed since the day you were born, and the prayers and anointing that was placed upon you then are still being carried.
There are those who see your power and are not equipped to manage it —yes, I'm saying that you’re too much for some people. However, that is not a reflection of you. In all honesty, having people transition out of your life when and how they do is a blessing in and of itself. I’d like to challenge you to reframe these thoughts. I want to see you grow and prosper. I want you to be fulfilled, and the only way to do that is from within — which I know for you is the scariest place of all.
I promise that if you learn to nurture and care for the person that I see you as and fill your own cup, there will be an abundance of joy and love that will flow into the lives of the right people.
Please give yourself time. Please be patient with yourself. Slow the fuck down, Apollo. As you move these boxes and notice the stains and try to claw your way out of this place emotionally, I want you to take your time. You have an entire life ahead of you and taking this moment and the ones that follow, no matter how hard, to be kind to yourself can unlock more potential and growth than the “push through” method that we’ve become accustomed to.
I know you feel alone. I know you’re hurt. I’m sorry she died. I know they’re kicking you out, but I promise this is not the end of the story. You are not alone. I’m here, and I always will be. Your thoughts feed your heart, so be mindful of what you put in your head. I love you as best I can from where
I am now, and that love will continue to grow as we move forward. We are, after all, still moving forward.
Lovingly,
Your greatest asset — you.
P.S. Get sober and stay sober.
Call your Granny when you feel alone.
